Things to learn about me!!!

Hi my name is Sasha, I wanted to get talk about somethings about me and hoping we can be friends. My main thing about me that is big. I have Autism. i wanted to talk a little bit about this to help others understand or something for me to look back on later. i got verbally diagnosed with autism last year of sometime. this has been really hard for me to understand and i look at my life differently now. Over the years, i have struggled being myself, meaning, im struggling to unmask my autism and be myself. Growing up i didn't understand why i was always bullied or being the shy weird girl and other horrible names that I've been called. I struggle talking in person and in public, and i never understood why i was like this. i make stimming noises my fav calming one when i don't feel like talking is making different whimpering noises kind like a dog. now there isnt anything wrong with this just a stimming noise i like the sound of. Another one is saying the word "Tea cow" something i made up and started saying. my main and fav stimming word i can get really loud at times and i don't notice is "Eeeee". now I usually drag this one out when i get really excited ill say "eeeee" and hand flap. I really struggle showing my emotions for the wrong time. meaning when someone passes away?? when others are sad i will laugh?? or smile. and people get really mad at me for doing this. now this isnt my fault but i struggle showing the right emotions in the wrong time. i also have a coping mechanism were when i get anxious i will rock side to side sitting or standing. sometimes i even hand fidget when someone is talking to me. i write all of this because maybe someone out here can understand me?? or at least except me for who i am??? i am new on here and i will say dont be afraid to reach out to me. ill be happy to listen and try to understand you this is just my story i wanted to share with all of you.