Awake

!! MILD VENT WARNING !! 

it seems I am staying up late again. I personally don't really know if I actually have insomnia or something but sometimes it just sort of gets on my nerves tbf. I feel like I might have another one of those depressive episodes again. even tho I don't really like to call them "depressive" because it just doesn't really feel like it?? 

my energy tends to be pretty low like all the time except for some occasions (meeting friends, watching/playing something really fun) and sometimes it feels like it is almost impossible to even try to work. 

I never think of it being an actually "depressive" state because I have already felt worse. in some cases much, much worse. but at this point it is so obviously inevitable that if I won't do anything abt this I <i>will</i> have issues with my life onward. 

anyways that is just one of the few things that have been ruminating in my mind for some time, idk if I'm going to actually add some more entries or not so this one might be the only one here.