What is having friends like

I know I’m supposed to be blogging but are there any ugly people out there who can relate to the type of depression I have. I haven’t had a single irl friend my entire life. Everyone I have online leaves me right after the face reveal and I like talking to people but they always find my appearance disturbing. Can someone pls relat and b friends with me. I’m only 15 and I don’t deserve this.

Can anyone tell me what having a friend is like