the idea of something better.

im sure i could like you for you but i didn’t, i have to admit that here out loud right now. i liked you for what you reminded me of who you reminded me of. he was perfect he was lovely and beautiful and i wish he wasn’t dead and when i met you it was like a second chance. i would have done anything to chase that. a part of me thinks i still would i wanna talk to you because i think it would give me closer but i couldn’t even begin to think of what i would say. i have so many questions none that concern me just things i accidentally found that peaked my interested and caused the rabbit hole deep dive. i mean i really found that twitter by accident i don’t know for sure it’s you it could just be your videos but im pretty sure lol it has your name written all over it. i don’t think we will ever talk bc i know it would be weird and crazy of me but i think you would understand if anyone would. especially with whatever happened to the girl u mentioned, i have questions about her too.