just thoughts

Isolation is interesting.

every time i meet someone who does not understand isolation i am baffled. my most recent ex was very social and its kind of amazing how much it changes the way you are. i am very aware of everything. things he wasnt. isolation is, nice. in the way its horrible. its so lonely but. at the same time im so free. i can do whatever i want. i can say whatever i want. i do want friends. i want a friend group to hang out with but its not easy to make friends now. people get on my nerves. no one really understands the way i think anymore because ive spent so much time alone just thinking. im homeschooled, i dont like talking to people online, i dont talk to my family. its weird. my birthdays in a month. 17 is a scary age.