Birthday ! !

 I’m pretty stunned to actually say (or type in this instance) that as of 12:55 PM, January 6th, I’m 15 years old ! Like actually! I never thought I’d make it this far but- like- I did? And that’s just astonishing? I thought I’d never get out of my dark places or make it past 10, but here I am. A budding high schooler who doesn’t know what they’re doing in life . .  (￣^￣)ゞ

For the past few months I’ve been on YouTube posting speed paints. I really wanna do animations and that cool jazz but I cant screen record nor do I have the skills to do that stuff.. I’ve been practicing! But I’m nowhere at the place I want to be at. And my attention span issues make that 1000000x more harder to doo

I’m hoping to start this year strong. I need to pull myself up and actually DO things now, I can’t just keep waiting for a miracle to happen and now I’m suddenly blessed by the gods with everything I’ve ever wanted. Off topic but I might, MIGHT get a drawing tablet. If I do I’m going to be SO HAPPY ! I don’t want one of those ones with the huge screens and they’re fancy and you need like 16 cords to power the thing, I want one of those thin, flat, screenless ones. Like a Wacom intuos or something. (Speaking of, the pistachio blue color they used is SO. STINKING. CUTEE?? It’s like aqua but it’s not am eye bleeding one and it’s not too blue and not too green? It’s perfect UGH.)

I am going to end this blog entry here, I don’t care if you interact or not but if you do.. hii :3 !! Helllooo !! ψ(｀∇´)ψ I’m going to bed now, byebye!

(this is me typing this rn at 5:15 am)