YO WSG GANG (this is a huge yap sesh im sorry)

sadly I am alive, jkjk but like kinda not yk? I got school tomorrow and I REALLY dont want to go, like on the verge of crying cause  I dont want to go. like I dont like school man especially my school cause it just sucksss okay so first bad thing about my school is the cafeteria, my school is a middle school (Since im 13) so its liike grade 5-8 so...its VERY loud. like when i was in grade5 and still went to the cafeteria me and my friend got fkn food thrown at us ☠️ and the floors always got some mystery liquid on them ... anyway! another thing I don't like is how bad the teachers are at teaching like my maths teacher, ill give her credit since she did move from a different country BUT she has no clue how to control our class, i js feel bad for her another teacher I dont like is my ELA teacher, now, theres ALOT about her, shes fkn crazyyy... i could make a whole ass essay on all the crazy shii she does and says, ok so for starters I also had her in grade7 (my school  is REALLY understaffed)  so thats like a whole nother year of her bs, the latest thing she did was a little while ago but it still pisses me off, so like I had been seeing the school counselor since shes really nice, and back then she only knew me as non-binary and not trans so she used "They" she she basicly said "hey can (deadname) come to the office THEY need to leave for a bit" and my FKN ELA TEACHER goes "whyd she say they? youre just one person," then she asks the ENTIRE class if they heard the office lady say any other names, then my teacher goes "OKay, well if more people need to be sent just tell the office to recall" LIKE... WHAT?! UR A FKN. E. L. A. TEACHER...WTF  anyway  hate her :) she also makes us do reading OUT LOUD and my anxious ass wants to die each time I gotta do it. also my ela teacher also teaches us science, she also cant do that but...im tired of thinking abt her, anyway got nothin bad to say about my french/history teacher🫡 he chill AF frfr. moving on from school (Well not really time to yap abt my IRL friends) I love my frineds...not in the freaky way tho, theyre js my besties who I dont always like talking to- but thats not my problem. only problem I got w them rn is tryna figure out how to tell them im trans...cuz like2 of myfriends r supportive and if i did come out theyd still take the unsupportive friends side...yk what I mean? like my one friend, she js doesnt gaf about any of that and her best friend is my other friend who things being gay is a cult... yeahhh IDK what to do :( I really care about all of them and dont want to loose anyone as a friend, im js really stuck rn.and like I love my friends but I sometimes feel loney around them yk? ok to make this simpler Ill give my friends fake names, my kinda supportve friend but not rlly will js call her Bee and my friend who thinks being gay is a cult well call her Iron and my Kinda friend not rlly anymore will be called Eee and my other friend Loo ok so me friends bee, Iron and Eee dont like Loo, Loos kinda ur weird kid yaknow? but the only person who admits it is Eee, Eee and loo have hated eachother for YEARS...its rlly stupid why they hate each other- trust me. holy fuck ive been talking for a longgg time (gotta have a blockblast video to the side frfr)  anywayyy.... my frineds stress me tf out likeeee half the time idk if I even like u guys- LIke I do like them  but like...idk how to explain it, js feel lonely as shii near them, always think they gaf about eachother more then me- but that might js be me being insecure, i really dont know at this point. yeahhh im really tired so sorry if im rambling... idk if anyone will even look at this lmaooooo I dont want school to start...I really dont, and my schoool has this new rule where students arent allowed to eat in the classrooms anymore and this week is gonna be too cold for me to walk around town and I kinda need to eat cus I got wrestling practice after school and its js like fuckkk I HATE eating in the cafeteria, like ive eaten there ONCE with my friend Loo and her friend group, was so awkward mannn I hate that place. anyway enough negative stuff... I got the first 3 bsd mangas for xmas! plus a book with Edgar Allen Poe's best works, PLUS No Longer Human :D im so happy I got them. I love bsd...I also love Dazai...idc if im basic hes my pookie frfr anywayyyyy sorry for the yap sesh ig idrk what else to say so yea! sorry this is long I am half asleep w music playing yk fuck man I LOVE Pierce The Veil like if ur a PYV fan lets js get married 🙏 I lovee their A Flair for the Dramatic and Selfish Machines albums...like theyre js soo...amazing...I also love MCR but not as much as PTV I love Pierce the Veil. 

OKAY I THINK IM DONE NOW

alr cya gang gotta go cry abt school being a thing <3

(Im not gonna read all that over again so idgaf if theres any mistakes)