Parties..? 😬

Later this week i believe, on a friday, we're having the first school dance of the year. its Y2K themed, and i has a friend tell me i should go to it, because of my style and the way i dress in school. Now dont get me wrong, i love parties, about 2 months ago i was invited to some little kids party for my sister, and i dont CARE if it wasn't for my age range, i was having a GOOD ASS TIME, i did kareoke, and got to teach these kids how to do the caramellendancen, so , yeah i like parties.

but what makes me nervous is the intention of ME being invited by this kid. he'll never see this blog, so i'll just call him neo.

Neo is a friend i made from knowing ANOTHER friend, he's probably the ONLY other person in my school that i can say dresses ALT like me, even if its not as extreme as i do. he's the BIGGEST Asteria fan i've ever seen, and even made his own custom sweater with the Anarchists Sanctuary symbol on it, so yeah, he's a fan.

If you've looked at my older blog posts, i've talked about how i feel like this guy wants to date me/ or has feelings for me. a LOT of these people think im taken by my "Girlfriend" because thats what i tell them.

i LIKE being single, dont get me wrong. but i dont know how to feel when people ask me out and im not ready. SURE< i can just say im not interested, but that risks them getting pissed at me for wanting to stay single. its SO MUCH EASIER if i just say i have a gf/bf bcs they'll back off. Thankfully it works, because most people try to stop talking to me after that. which in some ways could be sad, but honestly, i like my loneliness nowdays, its comforting a bit. sometimes.

im scared to go to that party because i feel like maybe i could be taken advantage of???? Like sure its at school, but i dont wanna fall into the hands of someone, the last thing i need is to be trapped in the hands of some nasty boy, so..... yeah.

also, knowing how school dances can be, most...suck in terms of food and music. i dont wanna go into that party and hear "IMM ALL ABT THAT BASSS BOUT THAT BASS NOOOO TREBLE" Im walking the fuck out. Play some fucking S3RL and make this shit a REAL Y2K party, damnit.

I have to get a permission slip to go BY thursday. i have 3 days to think if i wanna skip this or not.

- Cozmite