Jobs

Honestly-- this is mostly a rant, but it's a frustration that I don't think I'm alone in, so I hold some solace in that.

Applying for jobs in this hellscape of a job market is honestly one of the most demoralizing things I've done in years. I'm sitting here applying for jobs that I'm either perfectly qualified for, over-qualified for, or basically qualified for with transferrable skills, and I'm either receiving rejections or I'm hearing nothing back. And I've been applying for months on end by this point.

I have a spreadsheet.

To hear absolutely nothing back but rejections is so frustrating. I've been told time and time again that I should be doing more and better things, that I'm worth more than the job I'm currently in by my own manager-- and to get none of that feedback when I'm APPLYING for jobs-- is such a depressing feeling.

It makes me wonder if any of this is worth it.

I have and use common sense, I have several very useful skills in multiple areas, I have human empathy, I am smart (which god I know that sounds pretentious), and I'm stuck in either food service or a front desk position, suffering the worst that humanity has to offer. And I want to get out! I have a lot of experience and some solid background! But I'm feeling incredibly stuck.

And people who can't even remember or make their own appointments, who are rude to customer service workers, who don't see others as humans, but as means to an end-- they have the power, the higher paying positions, the secure positions, and they are succeeding.

I'm not using this as my villain speech, I'm not planning on dropping my empathy or common sense-- I don't think I can-- but it does have me feeling very tired.