ass whopping

a few days ago my ass got whopped by 2 way bigger guys during sparring. one was 5'5 and fit while the other was 5'6 and was in between fat and chubby. just to clarify im 5'2 and not even 100 lbs.

first round. boxing with 5'6 dude. all haymakers. face was exposed but i was covered in fear completely forgetting about my game plan. all i got was a nice lean back and a flying overhand which doesnt hurt as much as it did. stayed in his range while i was out of mine because im a bitch. bruised rib.

second guy. 2 rounds. wrestling. first round my plan was wait for him to try a takedown and counter. not sure how but i was quickly overwhelmed and basically molested (submission). tendons inflammed.

second round. same plan. he did the takedown. i stood well. then i tried to choke him. we were both bent over and he couldnt get out of my grip and i couldnt break through his arm that was blocking it. stalemate. then he sweeped my leg and i was laughed at. bruised cheekbone

i couldnt process it at the time. i didnt care about being hurt. i didnt care about being laughed at. when i got back home all i thought of was 'how am i gonna defend a loved one when im on the smaller side?' then i broke down crying hugging my mom. 

she went on about god knowing i wasnt religious and to leave it to him... fuck you mom.

but then jens gave me advice and now i cant wait for these injuries to be over with and beat the shit out of them like they did me.