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hey guys! happy 2025!!! i hope you guys had a wonderful holiday and a happy joyous new year. so much has changed, i don't even remember when i last updated you guys. i just checked and it has been ELEVEN MONTHS??? no way. during 2024, i really discovered myself, from different music i like, to even my style. but lets have a month by month breakdown.
JANUARY 2024: i remember being heavily depressed around this time.
FEBRUARY 2024: i don't remember much about february at all except i pre-filmed a lot of my youtube videos that have since been deleted.
MARCH 2024: by this point, i had reconnected with a friend from high school and even though we've had some hiccups in our friendship along the way, our friendship is pretty strong, sturdy, and has a solid foundation.
APRIL 2024: my sister's ex boyfriend whom i had a friendship came to live with us again for about a month and i really felt i was more hippie than anything. also this was when we had a solar eclipse and even though it was 77 degrees, once the sun vanished, i needed a light jacket.
MAY 2024: the ex boyfriend moved out and i found some old memories stashed away in the attic of my garage. my cat also had her kittens.
JUNE 2024: i found a new friendship in a neighbor and two homeless people she had taken in.
JULY 2024: a week after living with them, the girlfriend (one of the homeless people) refused to get a job so the neighbor kicked them out. they came to live with me and it was HELL. my world had been turned upside down with fights, abuse, and even a haunting. through all of their bickering, i found a friendship with both of them. i fell "in love" with the guy and things went from bad to worse. my whole world revolved around this guy. my space felt so negative the spirits in my house fed off of it and they began to knock objects over, knock on walls, break a lamp, and even slapped their dog. it got to the point that we were all scared to even use the bathroom on our own, truly terrifying. on the girlfriend's 20th birthday, all hell broke loose. she moved back home, and finally (unfortunately) it was just the boyfriend (her boyfriend) and i and my dad. he and i started sleeping in the same bed and even he always wanted me around, he seemed to not want to be away from me while also wanting space from me, he never shared his feelings so we were all confused on the situation and what to do. a week later, he moves back to where his girlfriend was and that was that. he even forbade her to talk to me. i mean, i was very open about wanting to be with him, but i wasn't trying to be with him. his girlfriend knew and she also knew that their relationship was safe because i wouldn't dare try to break them up. finally, he moved back to where she was, and this concludes the month of july.
AUGUST 2024: this is when i really became depressed again. with him being my whole world and him being gone, it felt like a painful breakup. i didn't want to exist, be at my house, i was constantly looking for a distraction from the pain. i was heart broken and i truly believed he would come back to me. he said he left because he felt trapped in my small town and needed to get away. but i truly believed he would come back. i even came up with a plan for him to come back and even get a job and stay with us. i didn't realize it then but i was trying to trap him into staying soi wouldn't be alone. i hate that i did that. finally, i bounced back through writing a book with my best friend. this book, though never finished, truly helped me see this guy for who he truly was.
SEPTEMBER 2024: i finally turn 21 and my whole world opens up. i'm no longer in love with the guy who left me (even though we weren't in a relationship) and finally we are no longer friends. i get further into Ghost Whisperer and my niece turns a year old.
OCTOBER 2024: i really lean into being emo and i started heavily listening to emo music. this is when i truly felt like this was the real me.
NOVEMBER 2024: i started to watch more of Inuyasha, an anime about a girl named Kagome, who was reincarnated from the priestess Kikyo who died 50 years prior trying to destroy the sacred shikon jewel, who can travel back in time and fight demons with her friends, Inuyasha( a half demon), Sango (a demon slayer WHO IS VOICED BY THE WOMAN WHO VOICED BARBIE IN THE EARLY 2000s), Shippo, a fox demon, and Kirara (Kilala, a cat demon).
DECEMBER 2024: nothing really happened until a week before christmas. dad got me a laptop for christmas and soon after we switched bedrooms. i really threw myself into playing fortnite and i think i'm obsessed. then on new years eve, i actually got to go to a bar and drink actual alcohol!!! then i had some pictures (mostly of gerard way) printed off and hung up. ill try to insert a picture. you might have to click this 
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i cannot believe it has been almost a year since i last updated you guys. i had one hell of a 2024. and it took me over an hour to write this blog... holy cow!!!
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