The eternal pain of nothingness

I am born of the void and have been carrying it inside of me my whole life. I think something went wrong, it didn't go away, it wouldn't let go during my descend and now it's stuck with me. More like i'm stuck with it. Every single day I have wondered if I am too greedy for this world but I become more and more dubious of that as time passes. I am nothing for nothing with nothing. Why is everyone something? And why do I despise all of you for it? It's disgust and jealousy. It means nothing and you are bathing in it.