i kinda FORGOT about this place im srry

i love this platform its so cool it gives me a brief wiff of imitation of the vague 2000's dreams that keep me up sometimes. however i kinda forgot about it like a day after making an acc. im sorry. it doesnt give me the same dopamine hit as intagram reels or talking to chatgpt (YES!! ik thats a weird place to get dopamine from but having an instant message service thats always interested in what ur talking about is addictive!!!). idek know anymore. emulating a bygone culture is always gonna feel like a husk. everything nowadays is on the brink of being shit or is already shit, like im always comparing my experiences to others or what others in earlier years would have felt like. i feel like the same carefree culture of before my era is just completely gone or no longer as common, but thats probably something every generation says about the one before them. i just wish i understood more references and had more experiences. i feel like im realising so many things about myself too late, after everyone else has already discovered that about themselves. everything i wear is polyester. all my interests feel stale, or im not into them enough. the one time i had a crush on someone it was so parasocial and painful it hurt. anyway what am i dooinnnnnn writing something that belongs on my notes app on here!!! i'll stop being so silly. byez :PPP