Being alone (orig)

Being alone made me realize  I have way more capability to actually spend time to myself. 
Ofcourse I still completely hate being alone, I'm with good spirits and drama free minds. Distancing or not being friends with those who have made me feel like absolute dog cheeks, with the schools AC at 7 AM, made me feel way better. I feel better with the less wait on my back, and the constant yelling, and arguing. 

I feel like I have more free will around the people who understand how I feel when I have tough moods and sharp words. They still stick with my instead of leaving like a dad who found out they just had a child, and wants to avoid child support. It's really inspiring to me how these people can cherish the time I spend with them, and keep the word. I love how these people understand how I don't like being alone.

What I love the most though. I LOVE how when I tell them that I'd pain me if I lost them it'd hurt me a lot. LIKE A TON, and they stay. 

Leo and Maxxie, you guys have shown me the best time last year and the beginning of this year. I'm so happy everything was dropped the day of Christmas Eve. because if it wasn't I'd feel like I'm stuck inside of a jail cell trying to break the wall with a plastic spoon for 50 years.