i got the short end of the autism stick

listen, it might sound lowkey kinda weird but hear me out.

ive been trying to join lots of new groups and communities with ppl i thought would maybe hopefully possibly understand me ina way and js kinda take interest in me, as i dont rlly have any friends & rly want to make some. but i was never able to rlly hit it off because in the end we didnt share anything in common from what it seemed like, except for being neurodivergent-- that was w everyone btw. and tbh, i felt like every single person i talked to, WAS JS THE CLONE OF THE PERSON I TALKED TO BEFORE. i mean same interests, same way of speaking, claiming to be ohh so anti-social and bad at communication while they manage to talk to literally everyone in the server??? WHAT?? the interests were all js kinda dandys world, sprunki fnf type stuff, that i REALLY REALLY tried to get into but i js cant I CANT BRO... and all of them were like "HAHAJAJHGJHKJHJ EATS MY FOREARM XDD STIMMING IM GONNA FUCKING BURN MY FAMILY DOWN" sorry, no offense, but, maybe chill for js a minute. i cant keep up pls js

IN SHORT, I DONT GET THE APPEAL. I DONT WANNA SOUND ABLEIST OR ANYTHING WITH THIS, BUT THOSE TYPES OF AUTISTS HAVE BEEN VERY COMMON IN THE SPACES IVE BEEN IN. and maybe thats the issue. the spaces. i know thats the issue, but finding niche community servers is kinda difficult, and communicating on a regular basis even more difficult. but i still have hope, maybe one day, ill find people that are also a little in the direction of my kinda autism. hell they dont even gotta be autistic, i js know they'll be neurodivergent in one way or another cuz what neurotypical dude would talk to me.

maybe they're not as rare as im thinking. but i cant js always wait for them to come to me i gotta look. i gotta look in the right spaces. and i gotta look for the place to find the right spaces. hope it doesnt fail and i end up in a group full of right-extreme teenagers again but i wouldnt even mind if they were js kinda edgy teenagers without the right-extremism.

and do note that i dont have anything against anyone, these ppl are mostly js not my cup of tea and i dont mind that at all. if they got a community, let there be a community but i sure as hell dont belong in it