When do siblings get good

So, im not sure if i've ever mentioned this on my blog..but i have siblings, SPecifically for this blog, a younger 11 year old sister.

And tbh, i have so many mixed feelings on her

as much as comapny can be good, and its something i want... just- not the kind that she provides. she makes me want to bash my head into a wall from her stupidity sometimes. I cant trust her either, because due to her age she doesn't REALLY understand me?? Or what i do and DONT want her to tell people/ Mention?? its very rocky and hard to explain.

I know one day in the future she'll actually be a better person.. but.

HOW LONG DO I HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL THAT HAPPENS????

IM SO. TIRED. OF HER ANNOYING ASS BEING SO UNDENIABLY RUDE AND FAVORITED BY MY FAMILY, and even THEN, when we ARE on good terms, i feel like im talking toa friend at school more than im talking to my sister. i dont really feel like i can be open and close with her at all, because she'll probably mention it to our mom or her friends like its just common normal info. Hell i cant even tell her i dont have a gf anymore, she knows im genderfluid and honestly i regret telling her, im not comfortable with telling most people abt my gender and it just feels weird that she knows and i kinda wish that she would forget. whenever i dress masc she gives me looks and its just like. i know shes fine with it bcs she knows im bisexual (That im open abt to most people other than my mom and dad) But its just. ghh. i hate. being open with my sister sm. i dont feel like she really understands yet. She hasn't even gone through puberty or nothin yet.

I long for the day i can have my REAL sister at home.

if i had to have a different sister, it would totally be Ghostly. i miss her. i miss her a lot.

- Cozmite