250104 00:08

i need my hair to grow out longer because this jungkook oppa looking ass haircut is lowk destroying me (guys its ok i can say that i used to be an army. borahae 💜) anyway. been playing lots of roblox. hanging out with online friends. specifically something evil will happen soon. its so fun!!! and the music is fire and the emotes are sooooooo silly i LOVE EM!!!!!!!!!!! hold on what am i even listenin to. OH ROCKEFELLERSTREET!!!!!!!! fire shit fr ong.

i need more moneh so bad.................. paid THIRTY DOLLARS today just because i needed some yarn and needles and beads. i got a really silky and light yarn so i can crochet my mom a lace hat. i actually love the way it looks so much and it might be my second favourite project. my top 1 will always be my star shaped bag with palestine colours. i need to make a new sturdy strap for it tho........

also some bad things thats goin on: i keep getting shitty nightmares about my ex even though i havent been thinkin bout that bitch at all which is really strange and i hate it all. this one time in my dream i had a job and he showed up to the place. this other time he made a new account because i blocked him and he joined the discord diary server i was in so he could stalk me. its honestly really bothering me and i wish i can just wipe my brain. uhhhhhhhhmmmmm less horrible but still stressig: I HAVENT DONE ANY RESEARCH FOR MY BIG PROJECT NOR HAVE I DONE ANY MATH REVIEW!!!!!!!!! im fucking SCREWED. i hate it here. ooooooughhhhhhhhhhhhh (i spilled wine all on my white tee bitches like me yuh) i also might not be able to study what i want after high school and thats kinda stressing me out. i dont know. everything feels so uncertain!!!!!!!!!! (duh duh duh duh duh duh duh duh duh duh duh duh duh duh duh duh oah oah oah oah oah oah oah oah oah oah oah oah oah oaaaahahahahahah) (that was my rendition of the iconic kpop hit bang bang bang)

i finally 100% nso and im so happy. i love ame so much!!!!!!!!!!!! what i would give to play it again for the first time. 

honestly ive been feeling like such an expensive child. i dont even demand that much or do any extracurriculars that requires a tuition but its like my parents have to pay for so many things still and it makes me hella guilty. i can barely do anything for them. like yeah sure i can cook some rice and take the meat out of the freezer but what else. how am i suppose to ever repay them. sure i got my pink tote moments with them but we've been on such good terms and it makes me feel guilty for having ever resented them (sorry my grammar is TRASH LOL yall get what im on about right......) (also sorry for the weird trendy pink tote term i learned it this morning and havent been able to stop thinkin bout it ever since)

anywya. appy mew year every1..