Big ol rant on my parents and such(๑•ૅㅁ•๑)

Hey guys it’s been a year!!! I’m finally 13 now!!! 8 grade woohoo! Yk I wish my parents actuallly kept up on my doctor visits… cause I’ve been depressed lately, and I’m getting like SUUUUUUPER antsy and restless in class and when I brought it up, my mom said “I’ll beat the hyperactivity out of you!” …what… I hate her. She does not care about me outside of the fact I’m her daughter. She doesn’t even know me as a person. She does not care about my mental health.

I’ve been sick ever since winter break started. I have not seen a doctor. “Well you don’t have a fever!” Well I also can’t even make it through a sentence without coughing my lungs up can I? It’s annoying. It’s uncomfortable. And then I’ll have to go to school in a few days! I’m not getting any better! GOD it’ll be so annoying coughing like I’m a smoker in the back of English class. I hope it doesn’t go away. I hope it gets worse infact. Just to stick it in her face. “I’ve had a horrible cough for two weeks and if you just DID SOMETHING ABOUT IT and got me checked out we wouldn’t be here!” Not like that’ll ever happen tho. I did have a fever for one day but I didn’t go to the doctor cause…it only lasted a day… whatever though….

I feel i need to take care of my body more often…I’m seeing like…stars…for no reason…wether I’m standing siting or laying….I need to eat more….and drink more water… but I usually forget to unless I’m starving it parched… such is my life. I really need help. Therapist Mayhaps. But I can’t get that help. When I see the doctors again I’ll ask them about it. I’m about that age when they pull you aside and ask if u think ur depressed…I’ll amp it up if I have to, anything to get what I need…meds??? Idk… a therapist would be nice tho…but they’d also spill everything to my parents… ugh….