Empty Depression

I feeling very down rn. I just kinda feel sad and I'm not exactly sure why. Probably just a mix of different things in my life I guess. The only thing I feel like doing rn is listening to sad MCR songs (I'm listening to MCR while I write this). I don't exactly know why I'm writing this but I figured it was better than doing absolutely nothing. Life just doesn't feel like how I think it should I guess... I have practically no work life balance and all my friendships don't exactly feel right. Not that my friends are bad people or anything bc they aren't but I just don't feel like I'm as connected to them as I should be. Idk if anyone else has this issue and it seems weird bc they've been my friends for long but I'm so socially inept that feels like even when I try to, I'm just not becoming any closer to them. And it kinda feels like I'm the only one trying sometimes. It sometimes feels like I'm the only one trying in a lot of aspects of my life actually. But no matter how hard I try it just goes to nowhere. Anyway I don't really know where I'm going with this so I suppose I'll end it here. Thanks for reading this far if you did