⋆｡°✩ vent ☆

☆TW- addiction, sh thoughts

srry 4 another vent. i didnt make a regular day update 2day bc nothing rlly happened, i js cleaned my room. there ended up being two large trash bags that im yet 2 actually bring 2 the garbage. everything is so boring. no games are fun, my friends would all rather hang out with anyone else but me. its js so boring. i will be so happy when im rlly hyped on caffeine, and when im back down im nothing. and im not fun, so i take melatonin, and the cycle repeats. shit is so hard. idk why. i js want 2 go back 2 sh, tbh. ill get over it, but i wish it was over. i feel everything so deeply. i can never be happy, or sad, or angry, or anything without feeling it so gut wrenchingly. i either feel everything or nothing at all. i hope my new bar gets here soon, so i can be an addict on that without being an addict on sh.