Love/Hate Relationship With Social Media

So, we all understand, and have experienced the negative effects of modern media. I won't bore you with the talk about brain rot, shortened attention spans, lack of human interaction, and pretty much wasting your life away on ur phone. I think what keeps me from resisting the addiction though, is the good parts of social media, especially tik tok. Tik tok is the worst of all when it comes to doom scrolling, but there is also so much beautiful content on there. Some of the most magnificent music/ photography/ film/ art that I have ever seen has been from tik tok. The FOMO i feel when not having tik tok is KILLERRR. I have been trying to just find balance between my real life and the internet, but it genuinely feels impossible. Once I open tik tok, I am on it for hours. When I delete tik tok, I scroll on instagram reels and even YOUTUBE SHORTS sometimes. I don't want to delete instagram because I love posting, it feels like a form of expression. And I love seeing my friends/ long term moots posts. How can I find balance in all of this? Do I just have the worst self control in the world? Let me know if yall relate to this.

(Originally a bulletin on the "Reclaiming the Internet" group but I wanted to blog it too)