New Me(•̀o•́)ง

This year, I am going to hate myself. It's a bold opener, I know. I'm not saying this in a self-deprecating way—the opposite, actually. The reason I'm going to hate myself is that I truly plan to push myself this year. I plan on learning the bus schedule so I won't have to rely on my parents. This leads to the other stuff I plan to do, which is me going out more. I'm going to double down on my schoolwork efforts so my parents' money doesn't go to waste. I also plan on pushing myself on the topic of cleaning like doing dishes, laundry, my room, etc... Doing the dishes and cleaning the kitchen is the absolute bane of my existence. It's so bad that I've almost cried at having to do it. I know that it may seem like I'm being dramatic and overreacting but at this moment the very thought of me having to get out of my bed for any reason causes such violent thoughts to course through my skull. I know it's going to be extremely hard which is why I'm going to hate myself this year, but I want to do better. I also plan to try to lose weight, so wish me luck. I hate this already.