Do you ever want to see your friends happy, even if its without you?

I love my friends more than anything, they have been my rock through so many things but sometimes i wonder  if they feel the same way about me. I think that they'd be better off without me, they are so kind and nurturing and so incredibly talented and smart so what are they doing with someone like me?  I wouldn't hold it against them if they do feel better without me i'd love to watch them as they grow into the amazing person i know they'd be even if its from afar