Trying to Enter My Levi Ackerman Era

One of my goals for 2025 is to be a more clean and organized person. I've always struggled with keeping up with chores and keeping things organized. Now that I live in my own apartment, most of the responsibility is on me. My boyfriend helps here and there, but let's be honest, I make the most messes around the house. I would just love to always be able to look at my kitchen and living room without feeling embarrassed or feeling like crying. 

It's not that I never clean, because I definitely do. I just struggle with motivating myself to clean often. I've had this issue ever since childhood and just haven't quite grown out of it.

Today, I just cleaned up my kitchen. It's not perfect, but it's definitely better than it was. There weren't a lot of dishes in the sink as my boyfriend had done them not too long ago, so that was easy to do. I picked the shopping bags up off of the floor, wiped off the stove and countertops, and put away food and seasonings that had been left out from cooking. I also threw away any trash that I saw. All I need to do now is vacuum (because the floor of my apartment's kitchen is carpeted...and so is the bathroom floor), but I have to wait because my boyfriend sleeps all day due to working at around 2:00 in the morning. I don't want to wake him with the noisy vacuum cleaner. I also still need to clean the microwave and the fridge. 

It's hard for me to keep cleaning once I start. I have a hard time staying motivated throughout the process. Because of this, I mostly do my chores half-assed. This always annoyed my mom growing up. She told me that she would rather me not do chores at all than only do half of the work. That never made sense to me back then, and that still doesn't make any sense to me at all. Having some clean dishes is better than not having any clean dishes, right? So, I tell myself that even doing a little bit is better than doing nothing at all.  

I often find myself wishing that I was a clean-freak like Levi Ackerman from Attack on Titan. Even if I had just a small percentage of his clean-freak-ness, my life would be better. Let's hope that I can become more like Levi Ackerman in that aspect in 2025.