rant about my soon to be ex.

I felt like I should talk about it here since I don't want to stir up drama with my irl friends. Anyway, with that out the way, for months my bf has been a genuine dick to me. I'm planning on breaking it off because I know he's cheating on me with a guy who's hair looks like undercooked chicken. 

I've tried to be a good partner. I know no one is perfect but I know for a fact I did well. I helped my partner when he was vulnerable, I supported the decisions he made and infact bought things that would help him transition. I've gone out of my way to defend him when he was having trouble at school and even introduced him to new people he gets along with. I made sure he was able to communicate about whatever he was feeling and tell me about any doubts. I've given him space, attention, and most of all love. I won't lie, I genuinely did love my boyfriend all up until I found out from some friends that he was going behind my back and cheating on me. 

He was distant and I noticed he was bringing my mutual friend around more frequently. I saw them together in pictures and even up close. I made plans with my boyfriend so I could see him and spend time with him but I was always declined and had the same excuse "I'm with___" My other friends would tell me about what was happening since I go to a different town for school. I didn't really believe them since I would have never thought my bf would do this but when I saw full on evidence and even witnessed them do weird things together I slowly began to realise it was true. 

Recently, I was invited by my boyfriend to sleepover with two other friends I'm close with and the person he is cheating on me with and I decided to come since maybe we could connect together but I was so wrong because the whole time they were always together and just chatting over and over. They were doing little crafts together whilst I sat there just waiting. I got more love from my friends who wanted to play roblox lol. The sleepover in itself was terrible since my boyfriend was just ignoring me and the guy he was cheating on me with was an entire mood killer.

There was so many other instances where I was disappointed. I go to a friend gathering every friday to see friends and my bf and on multiple occasions he has literally ditched me either in the place we usually hang out or in places I have no recollection of exploring. I think the worst one was when I was crying my shit out in the bathroom and everyone left me behind because he said I left to go home WHEN HE LITERALLY HEARD ME CRY AND THEN LEAVE. I felt terrible.

For now I'm hanging on the support of my friends and therapist and I'm doing quite well. New year new me. But anyway, I will be breaking it off as soon school starts. I don't care if it affects him or not, It pained me to see how he was with others and how he acted around me. I don't care if he cries and begs for whatever, I think I've wasted my time enough. Anyway, cheaters always cheat and I'm not sticking around with a weasel. 

and if you by any chance see this, fuck you Milo. I hope you know what you did comes to bite you back in the ass.