𓊆ྀིHAPPY NEW YEARS !!𓊇ྀི ୧ ༶⠀｡

thoughts ♡ so ... its january 1st 2025. well, duh, haha !! i have many many thoughts, some negative, some postitive, but for once i find; im becoming an optimist. im learning from my mistakes and moving forward. im starting to love myself a little more everyday. i notice silly little things i do, enjoy things i love ... im only human and i cherish the beauty of my existence. im grateful that i am ambrosine and no one else. im finally going to be myself this new year.

𓊆ྀིabt my time on sph𓊇ྀི as for my thoughts abt spacehey ... i have a lot, but im tired rn ... lol. but i will forever be grateful i discovered spacehey ♡ this is the one place i belong.  tho some incidents happened ... like, remember the whole robot thing ?? and i was freaky robot for 2 days, until i fortunately quit, when angry robot started annoying me besides that, just looking back on all of my eras, i dont rlly want to analyze them, or dissect them apart; i just want to live happily, reminiscing on them occasionally for subtle nostalgia, albeit in general ... im moving forward. that makes sense, right ??

goals ♡ for starters, i want to be a better person, not just to others, but to myself. ive always struggled with low self esteem, i think with all the improvement ive built up over the years, its time to put myself out there. im letting go of my insecurites this year. hence im going to express myself, as ive never truly done before. my ultimate goal is to be free. im not going to live in shame of being "weird" or embarrassing myself anymore.

dreams ♡ hmmm ... so this is kind of an extension of my goals, but i dream of posting my webtoon before anything bc im slacking on it, lol. i want to post art on twt and rentry graphics on tumblr ♡ actually .. i think i want to do everything on tumblr !! i also dream of posting many more blogs and becoming popular in my online communites. 

༶⠀｡learning from mi mistakes :P ୧ ༶⠀｡gyatting out some things bc we all should have a fresh start on new years day
╰┈໑ ׄ ۪ ݁ ⑅ been thinking abt my old art. nyatt even old, just some art i posted via bulletins on here before ... AND I HATE IT NEOW !! but. yk what ?? id still hate my art today if i never had that awkward interaction where someone pointed out i drew the legs too short ... heh. bc then i looked at the reference image as they said i should, and realized, wow, im just too scared to have a v stylized artstyle !!  becos i literally had such a weird way of thinking,, liek i thought i was too ugly to draw cute anime girls,, but now i love moe !! and i love myself more !! my art has improved a lot since then, all bc of that horrible anatomy, and someone pointed it out !! now i love my artstyle but ive since blocked that girl who helped me ... i hope she doesnt think i still draw that bad ... erm ... well, who cares ?? shes herself and i am me :3
╰┈໑ ׄ ۪ ݁ ⑅ another mistake of mine is when i got in sum hot water w this one guy, who was freaky in a bad way  and it ended bad, i didnt handle it the best but that was cause i wasnt used to getting hate online :P but now idgaf. why does it matter anymore ?? hes banned now anyways, lol. 
╰┈໑ ׄ ۪ ݁ ⑅ sometimes i didnt rlly think before posting bulletins and embarrassed myself a litte ... too much. but no one remembers prolly, and we all overshare im only human at the end of the day !!  now i just look back and laugh. like wow, im so silly !! and now ive improved from my mistakes. ofc theres way more but this is all i want to address :P 

 ༶⠀｡stuff im leaving behind in 2024 ୧ ༶⠀｡
bc theres a lot of unhealthy stuff i did ...
╰┈໑ ׄ ۪ ݁ ⑅ nail picking. as i type rn, my hands feel dry and crusty bc i pick around them ... and pick the nail itself, bc i kind of have a low attention span. i want to get some fidget toys instead, so i can grow out my nails n paint them like smthing cutieful !!

╰┈໑ ׄ ۪ ݁ ⑅ my anger issues. i need to start managing my anger better, and my emotions in general. i gyatt a journal from my therapist yesterday, i think thatll help a lot !!

╰┈໑ ׄ ۪ ݁ ⑅ overthinking. this bleeds into my poor emotional control, but overthinking has ruined my life a lot ... im officially dumping it bc life rlly isnt that deep most of the time !! im going to start just enjoying things, and thats that ♡ 

╰┈໑ ׄ ۪ ݁ ⑅ bedrotting. i sit in bed too much, i want to start taking daily walks n going places like i used to and since im starting online school, ill have much more time to have funsies !!