I cant decide/ Im dooing everything i can to be something

Once i told my parents, that i will study criminology and deal with bad people, my expectations were high because i was really good at math and that kind of stuff. As i finally reached High school, i already thought that the first days cant be that bad...right? After a month or two, i come back from school and look at my mom and say

-Mom, i want to go to the arts academy...

Fail at school was not my thing, and my parents already had high expectations. Its like "you chose your path, now walk it" and i had no choise to accept it. My parents are not bad, it might be my biological dad that my mom devorced when i was little. The reason why im pushing myself hard is because of just succses, its that i dont want to end up like my dad, not working hard, losing his driving license and constantly lying.

Now its ether the Arts, but arts will get me nowhere, or Deal with bad people, criminology.

That or That

I just cant decide