Break in the New Year

figured i should write something about my "new year's resolutions", just so i can have a reference later on. i've been trying to get over my tendencies to always wait for something major to improve myself, but it's new year's anyway. i'd be trying to become better either way, but i'll always be a sucker for numbers reset to zero and making a new list.

Simpler stuff - i want to try to watch more movies, listen to more albums, and read more books. i do listen to a lot of music, but i've been straying from full albums lately, which is lame.  i've also gone months to years not doing any of the other stuff, using my horrible attention span as an excuse. i do genuinely have a horrible attention span, but i think just letting myself be like that without ever trying to overcome it has only harmed me.

i've also been lifting a good amount lately, so i'd like to keep that up (probably not to the exact amount as now, since i've been doing it to kill time while on break, but enough where i don't lose traction) i'd also like to start working out more than just lifting but i've had way more trouble keeping that up in the past, so for now i'll just focus more on my success to give myself some motivation

Academically and Economically, i would say i'm definitely gonna lock in with high school but i'd be lying. Just trying my best to suceed with my trade program is way more important to me, so my goals are to achieve above at least a B in trade school and just graduate high school (you totally feel comforted knowing your electrician had such high goals, right???). i'd like to get a job before graduating but it's honestly not likely. after graduating i think it'll be pretty easy, but that's so far in the future for me right now it's not even really something i can really conceptualize

i think the most important and hardest thing i want to acheive next year is just talking to people more and maintaining my friendships better. i'm genuinely not  a very good friend to the few i have, and i've spent too much time wallowing in self pity about it rather than just trying to improve. i'm going to try to be a better friend to those i have, make more real connections instead of holing myself up and acting like no one wants anything to do with me, and mend what i've done wrong if anyone is willing to let me. 

happy new year from me and my boring block of text of a blog. the title is a cursive song