OCD...?

My brain won't shut up.

thoughts that I don't mean to think keep flooding into my head and I don't know what to do about it. And with these thoughts comes the feeling that something tragic may happen to me and/or my family...

I find myself performing actions multiple times just till it feels "right". Not because I want to, but because it feels as if I have to in order to keep myself and everyone around safe.

Ruminating on things that most would think doesn't matter, but feels like everything to me. Things that I feel would totally turn my life upside down  if I don't reflect on it...

It's a pain in the ass and there's pretty much nothing in my power that I can do to stop it.

And the fact that I'm not diagnosed yet makes me even more shitty.

What do I do...?