Christmas break

So today is the last day of 2024!! I'm so happy 'bout that cuz this year was seriously so shit so I'm feeling quite good about this ^_^ 2024 was HELLISH!! But the fact that it is December 31 means that my break ends in 7 DAYS!!  GOD DAMMIT NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! I LITERALLY HAVE DONE NOTHING SINCE THE BREAK STARTED!!! AND THAT ISN'T JUST A WAY OF TALKING BC I SERIOUSLY DIDN'T EVEN GO OUT!!!! Except for that on time last week.... 

So basically Friday last week, my parents and I went to the mall cuz I need a new winter jacket. But I don't why I would need a newer one! Normally in Canada, it gets super super cold between the months of November to February BUT THAT HASN'T BEEN THE CASE AT ALL THIS YEAR!!!! Like today is the last day of December and there is literally not a single drop of snow outside! NOT ONE! (And it's also 4°C which is EXTREMELY reasonable around this time of year) So obvious I don't want a new jacket and I'm BEGGING my parents not to take me. A fun fact about myself (but not really) is that I have horrible HORRIBLE social anxiety! Like if I feel that too many people are looking at me I'll just fall to the ground and immediately start crying (which happened last year so yea) 

So we arrived at the mall and I immediately wanna just crumble away and DIE! When I tell you there was a bunch of people.... THERE WAS AT LEAST 700 PEOPLE IN MY FIELD OF VIEW ALONE!!! My mother could sense that I was really starting to rust the process so she just told my dad to finish up with the shopping quickly. AND I FELT SO BAD CUZ MY SISTER WANTED TO LOOK AROUND IN THE MALL LONGER BUT COULDN'T BECAUSE OF MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I feel like crap cuz the only time we went out during our whole break was ruined because of my anxiety:(  And to make things worse, my dad's break ends tomorrow so he would have spent his whole vacation without hanging out with his family... 

In conclusion, this was probably the worst Xmas break be far and I feel super bad about it :/

Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEARS \^_^/