guh

Huzza tis another rant) I feel so guilty and selfish I just I don't even know how to explain it. I'm just so tired maybe im spiraling downward again or maybe its just new years but I'm just done. I quit. I give up. I can barely sleep at night and I only pass out around 4 in the morning. I remember being scared of staying up late because of every one saying how scaryyyy 3 am was lol. now I'm just scared I'm dead weight. weighing him down. I'm scared. is it bad I want more attention from him? I just want him to talk to me. I know he does but I just want us to have longgg convos and we do but I just I dunno. maybe im being greedy.