Poem about my trauma

Trigger Warning: SA

As I remember myself frozen
As the hand touches a petal
As I felt my heart being fatal 
As he says it was soft as it was broken

Thirteen candles count each day
As I felt rip apart for each
As I was a peach
For him to touch that way

I trust, told, tell him
As I felt my jeans hurt
My body being taped around a bird
He never knew anything slim

3 months I told 
I was scolded
"Why didn't you tell me?"
I was hesitant and scared as a bee.

As he wasn't a friend anymore
As I wasn't in control
3 times not more
I hated that so

Let me control my body!
Shut up! Shut up!