Soo...It's almost 2025? Woah?

Alrighty so first of all...Soo much happened this year? Well to me at least, I don't know about y'all.

I've gained new loving friends, I've gone through new important experiences, I've gone through tough external challenges that weren't very enjoyable, but definitely changed me for the better...It's been an interesting year to say the least!

The beginning of this year definitely could've been better. I went through a huge wave of loneliness, derealization, and a slight caffeine addiction for some reason? I was obsessed with the idea of academic success, and it felt like the most important thing at the time...but then AP testing, end of year tests and regents ended..then I realized...it wasn't everything. And that I probably needed to hang out with new people as well. (LOL)  

Despite how minuscule it may sound/look, this era of 2024 really molded me into the person I'd be for the rest of the year. Of course it was absolutely horrible, but it helped me learn that balance is key in everything. Even education.

Early-mid summer was a bit of a blur..I hung out a bit, but most of it consisted of bedrotting unfortunately...! But the END of summer is where things really started to pop off!

I don't really want to go into depth, but I started to procrastinate more and more..which is ironic due to the amount of growth I made back in the beginning of the year, but I digress. So, I decided I really needed to lock in and focus, right? Yeah, very short lived.

I doubt any of you read that entry, but remember the junior from last year that I mentioned (who is now a senior btw)? Yeah, turns out I grew feelings for him!

I don't really wanna rant on and on about this, so long story short we dated for a very, VERY, short amount of time before we broke up with each other. (My first relationship by the way.) Which was originally fine before..certain things were found out, which low-key caused my heart to break. As cringe as it sounds, that is literally how it went verbatim unfortunately. (╯︵╰,)

Despite the fact we are on good terms again, that experience helped me learn that I should ALWAYS make sure that I go about things pertaining to romance and relationships with caution and fragility, excluding any haste or doubts in my body.

But those are really the biggest things that happened to me as of this year! That I feel like mentioning on here at least. Oh! actually, I lied. I turned 16 as of a few days ago!! Originally, I felt the same as I had before when I was still 15...but as time passed I just started to feel...different. I'm not really sure how to explain it, or to put it into words even I just felt more of a change within myself compared to my past birthdays for some reason, buttt...yeah! That's about it!

I highly doubt anyone is going to read this, but I am forever grateful for ALL of my experiences I've had this year, and I wouldn't change it for the world, and I hope to anyone who reads this that you have a WONDERFUL year ahead of you, and I love you for dedicating your time into reading this. I love you babes <3