helloooo

hi whoever reads this lol 

i don’t really know what i’m doing here, but recently i’ve been reminiscing on being online from 2012-15 and how i looked up to different subcultures and aspired to them one day. found this website while searching reddit for places to find CDs.

now that i’m older, i don’t fully know what subcultures would accept me. i like funky colors and patterns, but i adore the aesthetics of both punk and lolita fashions. i always used to love pastel goth clothing, and eventually found comfort in 2010s emo culture throughout high school. now i’m struggling to express myself accurately. 

i guess it’s more accurate to say i have a vibe in mind, but i don’t know where to shop. i like what i like, and if i dislike something i will! not! wear! it! but i’m overall joining because the vibe of spacehey relates to how i’ve been feeling recently.

something exciting is that i am going to a Comicon on january 30th! i’ll be cosplaying in a cute Cinnamoroll inspired outfit, with ears and all. i’ll also be wearing a LONG wig so i won’t look like myself whatsoever (given my real hair is more of a mullet). hopefully i’ll be able to afford a plushie to carry with me as well! we shall see :3

i’m not feeling great at the moment to be honest. i continually get teased for being socially awkward or different, but i can’t tell what im DOING that’s perceived as so awkward and different. hopefully someone relates? i kinda had a meltdown at family dinner tonight because a sibling joked abt how i act. i don’t really know, but i do like who i am, so that’s good i guess.

anyways i hope y’all have a good night! i may write daily as a form of diary.

thanks for reading!

mar 💫