1 day left until this horrible year is over.

"This will be a great year" I said; "I'm gonna stick to all of my new years resolutions" I said; "I'll be more social and draw more this year" I said. Yeah no bud, you're just like the rest of them.

2024 was a filler year at best; 2024 was a shitty year just like 2022-2023 at worst. I did absolutely nothing this whole time: I never stuck with any positive relationship, I either drifted away or got into a petty argument that crashed everything; I still have my horrifically shitty diet; I only ever drew like 2 whole times in this whole year; I'm still depressed af; I'm still antisocial and a misanthrope; and I have had my annual thing with having a really shitty friend that goes on to demonize me, basically saying I'm horrible and I'm the Gen Z rendition of satan or something.

I pretty much ruin everything good that happens to me, or when I request something good to happen it all just so happens to go shitty. (I really fucking hated my 15th birthday but my mom is forcing me to have a 16th birthday because sweet 16. Gross ass shit, you know sweet 16 was originally about being a girl's last day of freedom before getting married off, right?) I literally can't fucking take this anymore honestly and I'm 100% considering permashifting/respawning now to have a sort of reset on life. At this point I kinda don't care about becoming a better or healthier person in 2025 because knowing me I'm gonna never achieve that and I've gone way too far deep. The thing I love about reality shifting is that I can leave all of this behind.

My new years resolution for 2025 is to just survive until 2026 (and do that whole permashifting/respawning thing successfully). Though I'm predicting it now I'm gonna get diabetes when I'm 17-18, if my mom can get it when she was in her early 20s, then I can too.