friendship on thin ice

sorry for only coming here when my life is falling apart, i noticed that's kind of a trend i've been doing.  but my friends of 5 years might all be leaving me, not because they don't like me but maybe because we're growing up. and it sucks. i know someday this would happen, but why does it have to be now? i think one of the scariest parts is that i'll never find amazing friends like them again. ones that make me laugh, that are always there for me when i need it, people i make memories that i will never forget. i know i have to go out there and actually make friends instead of them coming to me, and that not everything will always stay the same. but don't you wish it could?