Horrible 2024

Im sooo bored, theres nothing to do and my parents wont let me leave the house.

Im just listening to music as I write this lol. Im glad 2024 is going to be over because I'm sick and tired of this depressing year.....I absolutely hate this year, I hate how I let myself be used (not in an inappropriate way) but in a way that will some day embarrass me ;---;. In this year Ive done some horrible stuff to random people but atleast it was for a lesson. The people I started 2024 with are sadly gone lol but to be honest I couldn't care less if they left because they only made my life worse and I do not need negativity in my life because I am trying to become a better person. Hearing his name makes me sick to my stomach and I hate how everything ended because now I could be with my cat and then all of a sudden I start to remember all the embarrassing things they he and I have said like my life cant get any worse omggg!!! But I've been praying and going to church and im trying to distract my mind on what happend. If who ever is reading this wants to know what happend to me then I'll just say it because its almost new years and I will soon forget about this ^_< Alright well first he,"krone" would manipulate me to "ruin" Alexander's life (alex) and he would say that he would buy me candy if I did it and since I was dumb and inlove.... I did it. after that he ghosted me for 1 week but then came back to me after he litrally vented to me on how depressed he was just because his gf at the time (jocy) cheated on him with alex and blah blah blahhhh but since he knew I liked him, he used me to get over her. Keep in mind that "Krone" and jocy have been together for almost a year. In the summer this whole situation increased worse because jocy had been knowing that I liked "krone" which was embarrassing but I mean they broke up so I didint really care. And once Jocy wanted my ig acc to txt me saying that "krone" dosent want me but that same day he added me at 2 am because im guessign that he needed to vent to me again. That same month (june) I was going on a trip to mexico and I still kept contact with "krone" because I was bored and he and 2 other boys were the only guys i talked to. Then this were the juicy stuff comes in.... I arrived to mexico 1 week b4 it turned to July and tell me why the day b4 it turned the 1st of july "krone" texted me saying "i dont like you like that kyz ihy i hope u d!3" but i was already so tired and fed up that I just removed him on everything. But then when it was the 1st of July "krone" wants to unblock me and starts texting 1 of my guy friends "pls tell her to accept my follow request" and once I got that message I was nervous and since i cant get a clue of reality I accepted it and little did I know that his messages would change my day by alot.... He texted me saying "im sorry i blocked you I just didnt know how to tell you that i like u... I like you and you like me back :3" and a whole lotta nonsence and bro i was panicking and then i got the "I really like you and ur personality and ive decided that i want you to be my girlfriend" LIKE BRO IF ONLY I COULD GO BACK IN TIME AND K!LL MYL3F CUZ TELL ME WHY I SAID "ill love to be ur girfnnddd" LIKE BROOOOOOOOOOOO IM SO EMBARRASSEDDDDD but ur prob wondering..Why would she be embarrased lol i thought she liked him??? WELL GUESS WHAT after a week that we started "dating" on a friday at night he texted me saying "can i tell you something" and once i got that message i knew he was playing me so b4 opening the full message i removed him form my bio (bc we both had each other on our bio) And when i opened his message i said "ya" and then thats when he proceeded to tell me how he was only with me to get over jocy and i still remember his sorry ass apology "im sorry lol goodnight tho" I wanted to burst out crying but I already saw it coming so i just thugged it out and I prayed that same day because it was just horrible, I couldnt eat of how nervous i was. So we only "dated" for about 4 day lol not even a week bro and in those 4 shitty days he was mostly nonchalant to me like bro. And then the day after we i guess "broke up" (the reason i put the " is cuz he never said "im breaking up w u") I suddenly got a follow request from jocy and i was like dawgg im cooked cuz im so stupid they had each other followed while we were "tg"  but i was already so fed up with life that i didint accept  her message and then boom i get a message from "krone" yk what fuck it, i got a message from jovan but turns out it wasnt jovan it was jocelyn she was on his fucking account im so stupid bro why me but that that i got threated by jovan saying that he was gonna d0xcc me which he didint he was just trying to scae me and make me apologize for the stupidest reason bro they both teamed up on me saying that i was acting like the victim like BRO WHAT VICTIM OF WHAT?!?!?!?!? and oh my gosh i was embarrased by old messages i had sent and it was horrible, i was called names by jovan such as "ugly anor3xic  bitch" but all i said was "ur skinny asl too" cuz he is but after that jovan blocked me and that whole july i was nervous I couldnt eat well and i thought everything was alright until i got a message from jovan needing my help with alex and i spoke back by saying "oh but im a pick me tho right?" because he called me pick me because i talk to boys or something like bro i litrallly have more girl friends like dude what? but this time he said "ill give u 10 dollars if u do it" and since i didint learn from the 1st time i was in this situation i did it. Some time passed and no money, I was just so stooopiddd. but around august he texted me saying "pull up to the park for the money" and i thought it was a setup but i agreed and i was at the park and i got my 5 dollars...5 DOLLARS??!?!?! WHERES MY 10 DOLLARS YU SAID U WOULD GIVE ME..."i kinda bought mc donalds" like dude oml but afteer that some time passed and we in september were we start to talk more we start calling and then he tells me how he got cheated on by jocy AGAIN and at this point i was like oml i dont care cuz ive been telling him to drop her cuz she ruined his life and he ova here saying some stupid shit like "ruin me" like shutyobitchassup after allat help i gave him he still going after ha acting like her lil pet. but since im a good person I was comforting him i guess idek but then we start tsalkign and blah blah blah its friday sep 20 jovan texts me saying "natnat wanna hangout this week"  and i said "are u being fr?" and he said yes and boom its sep 27 i basicly lied to my parents saying i was gonna hang out w ma childhood bsf at the park and once my parents left me i met up w jovan and since we had planned the whole day out we went to starbucks were he payed for my drink and then we walked around my street while my parents were looking for me.. i was home by like 7 and then i got yelled at but i didint say a word of who i was with and then i got on my computer to txt jovan saying how my parents took my phone away and he said "LOL" and then we just didint text the whole day while i was constantly checking ig to see if he txted me bc he was all lovey dovey to me talmbout sum "wanna buy matching pjs" and then it was sat and i got my phone back and that day i was  texting my guy friend saying "idk what we are but im so confused like does he like me or not" and he told jovan and tell me why jovan said "i only see her as a friend its just that i dont want to hurt her" like bro ur leading me on fym u dont wanna hurt me and since im a independant woman I textwd jovan and said "I know u dont likw me but u srsly cant be saying that u wanna match, u wanna cuddle, u wanna bake cookies and other corny shit just for u to switch up saying u only see me as a friend, i onlly posted us hanging out aAS FRIENDS" and some otha stuff and he said "im sorry" and someotha stuff and then our story ended the following wednesday were he finally blocked me bc "im annoying" like the switch up is wild and yeah i cut off the guy friends mentioned and its just crazy how words and actions can affect someone but some people are just so messed up they dont even notice it. Well i have evb blocked on every platform because i really dont want to go back to any of them at all. luckily ive made a new guy friend lalo and he is the sweetest and i spill the tea on all of his friends bc if jovan did it then i can aswell!! hehehehee I guess thats it lol cuz i dont have anythign else to talk about OH ACCTUALYYY jovan was dating a "j" but they broke up like in the begging of dec and now jovan is dating a girl named nicole lolllll poor girl someone save her #freeuumahearttt!! but yeah jovan chopped asll idk how i liked him for over a YEAR thats it for today i wish him the worst in life !!<333 seeyahhh :PPP