Freshly 7teen New Years overwhelming but excited for future!🙃

27th of December was my b day was really nice ate cake and pizza and went out had fun w younger bro also his b day same date just different years he turned 15 I turned 17 this year was really fun:b it’s crazy to realize how time has gone so fast it’s been really amazing but very emotional especially w the big  grieving these past years:(( I’m trying to be excited for the New Years new start new everything Coming in with new better friends new pet new place new environment makes me happy but also very down realizing what I had to let go I’m still working on letting go but it breaks me so down cause all I want are my babies I don’t feel upset or hurt for anything or anyone but them I can feel so happy for a second in-till I realize I don’t have them with me and I don’t know if there safe it’s about to be 2 whole years without my dear Lucy and Scarface I think abt them ever hour of the day I know I won’t ever let go of it they were my everything and will forever be my everything every memory there touch there favorite habits there favorite food how can I let go of such precious memories precious babies man anything with that part of life hurts me affected me so much especially with losing my chili recently 2 months ago my feeling have been messed up emotionally I feel so frustrated cause it won’t go back normal I am trying my best but I hope all of you guys had happy holidays and hope new year goes great for you all if anyone needs to reach out I’m always around when I can be !!*\(^o^)/*