me ( update/vent? )

hi guys,I know I haven't been on for like 2 months; I'm sorry about that.

I haven't been feeling great or good these past few months. it sucks.

that job i was hopeful would go well, didn't. it piled on with my stress, and they almost had me working 6 days a week before I changed my schedule.

my mom was being worse, and even the week my job started she got a boyfriend who lived with us. he was immature, supported red side political stuff, and overall was immature. he even suggested doing awful things with my mom in front of me.

then they started arguing a lot in the midst of it, then he left her. then my mother started acting out and now its like she's having a midlife crisis. she's being immature.

I had a small boyfriend, but of course I messed it up due to all the stress of school, my job, and my immature mother.

I thought Christmas time would be nice, like last year. I thought it'd be calming. yet it was just another reason piled on to the reason I hate the holidays .

I hope you all are doing well, have a happy new year.