i dat men who embarass me

im a woman of color. 

iv been rape* 

ive been bullied fir my skin an used for m body by my own bf 

iv been cheated on over 7 time by th same guy

and everyon teells me to stand up but to that i say!

how am i supposed to know! <3

i also might add that iv never had a father figure growing up and i crave male attention EXPIDISOULSLY 

so ofc i chose the bear in the woods but realistically

the inner child in m would pick th man in hopes that even if he dos kill me he gives m the slightest bit of attention