i hav no geek bar an im going insnae: an addicts perspective

i hav a halloween geekbar. iv been using it since halloween. its now christmas. i hav autism and anxiety an im rlly insnane an im going to explain to u  what it feels like to barley hav any juice in your geekbar and only cotton to smoke. 

i woke up this morning and didnt hit my geekbar within 30 minutes of waking. an hour even. i did not hit m geekbar until two. hours. later. after waking. 

now ik what ru thinking "Omg look at this nicotine addict shes going insane because she does have a miami mint ice in her  mouth at all times. " and as i am a nicotine addict, i also am mentally ill and might i add i hcav not been off the nictoine in months!

as i progressivley dig deeper into m cnic addiction m anxiety has gotten worser and worser. an so hav the thoughts. but being off the nic helps me forgwt i even hav thoughts. the mor i hit it the dumber i get. i am rlly stupid. 

anyways. i need a new geekbar an if u see m on the news for stealing or sui*cide im sorry