i met god

I met god the other day, and she was the woman who bought me a hat when I couldn't afford it myself. 

I never knew whether I was religious or not, I teetered between hating religion and the mere idea of a god made me laugh.

Then, I would go to being completely devoted. I think that's where I am now. But, my God isn't a man in the sky, it's the people I share the ground with. 

What is God really? Like how do you characterise him, or her? Well, apparently, God is all-powerful, self-sufficient, unchanging and all-knowing. But what does that matter to good, what does self-sufficiency matter compared to kindness? I don't care about a God who is unchanging, I care about a God who cares. And that's what I believe know people are. 

My dad always tells me how people are inherently bad and selfish, telling me to expect the worst from people, usually following it up with an anecdote of some negative experience he had with a person. After a while I start to notice that he repeats these stories, he's run out of tales to tell. And then I had to ask 'well what about some good stories', and he stopped and said 'I don't remember that, it's not important compared to the other ones'. 

I have the complete opposite mentality, and I think it's gotten me hurt a lot. I try to look out for the best in people, and sometimes that gets me in a pickle. But that's okay, because I have infinite love to give, I am love. And so is everyone else. It's okay if I get hurt sometimes because I am surrounded by 8 billion infinite loves. 

Look for the good in people and it will reveal itself.                                                                  And, if God is real, he exists in the good and kindness of the people around us. 

I love you, mika :)