what do i do with my life

Coming from a young person, I have a lot of dreams. These dreams are hard.

I dont know how to accomplish them. I really want to. 

I wish I could animate. I love the idea. Animating, I love it. How come other people are so good at it, and I'm not? Why can't I have a style and not be a copy-cat? I am trying.

I wish I was better at making friends. My friends, well, not my real friends. They aren't good people. They are homophobes. They are rude. They are immature. But I still want to fit in. I have a couple of real friends, but I don't feel happy.

 In real life, I am an autistic, and I probably have to just accept that. I won't ever find someone.

I wish I was better at talking. I can't speak very well, and I sound annoying. 

I don't know what to do.