To my little degens on discord.

Dear Ashley: I love you. Your a amazing friend. Amazing person. I know your thinking about ending it rn. I can tell. And im a soft dickhead. So of course i was gonna get offended. And honestly sometimes when you offended me i laughed a little. Im the bad friend here. And you deserve to live. I know i've done and said terrible things to you for attention. I know im a bad friend. i love you. Just dont do anything stupid. I love you. and you matter so much.

Dear Jakob: I love you. I understand Im a bad friend to you. I understand i made people think your a pedo. I dont know whats wrong with me to be honest. So dont forgive me. But if it makes you feel better. Fiddle and ICY forgive you. I asked them myself. They do. Val and Sandwhich are fucking dumbass cunts who should kill themselves. They cant pull shit besides online! And they say its healthy? Healthy my ass! Anyways. Dont forgive me. Forgive everybody else besides me. mkay?

Dear Hatr3d: I love you. I wish you only the best. I dont care what happens after your break. I just want your mental health up. Your a great kid. You also have so much potential. You have a point and you'll find it soon. I promise. Dont let anybody get you man. Your a great handsome man. I hope everything gets better. Focus on yourself man. Please.

Dear Mary: I love you. Your such a amazing person. You have so much potential. You matter so much. I could have killed myself by now. But guess who is holding me back? You. I love you Mary. Sometimes when I feel like nobody cares i think abt you. You literally have a journal of our mental health! That says so much about you! I know. And hope you will achieve your goals. Your very pretty too! Your an amazing great soul!

Dear Lizzy: I love you. Thanks for letting me let everything out to you. Thanks for letting me show who i really am to you. Thanks for not letting me kill myself. Thanks for helping me go to sleep. Thanks for your time. Thanks for your patience. Thanks for not judging me. Thanks for letting me let real emotions out on you.

Dear Zaire: I love you. Your beautiful. Your kind. Your amazing. Just like Mary I know you have tons of potential. And i know your being tortured by your ex. Feeling like your trapped. But deep down you have that fight in you. I know you do. i support you being trans too. Guess that makes two. You wanna know something? I've trusted you for a while. I've told you alot about my life. You know what that makes you? Perfect.

Dear Lexi: I love you. You've been amazing, You may not like me. And i understand that. I dont like me either. And your a amazing person. Trust me on that. I've always had trust in you. I was just scared you didn't like me. Which you probably dont. But still thank you. I hope emi is doing good.

Dear Emi: Im sorry. Im sorry i was a dick to you. I understand your just a kid. So you acted like you were fourteen. I was desperate for love at the moment. Im sorry.

Dear Ruff: I love you. Im sorry. I fucked up big time. I miss you. I fucked you up. Im not important though. So dont worry. I hope your life is amazing. I hope your okay. I hope people treat you right. I hope whoever you date next loves you and doesn't do shit for attention like i did. I hope you didn't do anything stupid. But i know im not important enough for you to hurt yourself. Ashley told me you used to dm her about how much you missed me and wanted to get back together. Your right. Im not great at showing love. I probably did feel artificial. I shouldn't be what you want in a relationship. You always deserved better. Im sorry i wasn't enough. Im sorry I was doing too much for attention. Im sorry i hurt you. Im sorry for it all. I hope your living okay.

CHECKPOINT: Name: Tyler. Time and date: 12/27/24 4:42 AM. checpoint number: 5

Im sorry to you all. I am. I did alot for attention. I was a bad friend. But heres what im setting my goals on for you all now.
Ashley: Getting you help. I love you like my child.
Jakob: Teaching you who you are. I love you like my brother.
Mary: Getting you to your full potential.
Lizzy: Teaching you how great of a person you are. <3
Hatr3d: Getting your mental health up.
Zaire + Lexi: Trying to you guys to your potential like Mary.
Ruff + Emi: Getting your forgiveness. Getting you guys back.

I will forever be there for you all.

Lord God. I come to you a sinner. And i humbly repent for my sins. I believe that Jesus is Lord. I believe You raised him from the dead. I would ask that Jesus come to my life and be my Lord and Savior.  I receive Jesus to take control of my life. And that I may live for Him from this day forth. Thank you. Lord Jesus. For saving me with your precious blood. in Jesus' name, amen.