WHAT ARE 'FRIENDS?'

For me, social groups are like... the whole point of high school in a time like this. You find a group for you and that's where you sit in the hierarchy of your school year for basically the rest of your time there.

sometimes you swap and switch around the people you hang-out with, other times you stay with the same person all the way. Other times you remain with your day ones, all the way from public school... and for many it's a random piece of fate.

In my school, I'm known as the 'nice' student, never got into a fight, respects the rules, does the work, picks no side, is friends with everyone, has no beef against anyone... that's me, and it sucks.

There are a select few that I allow to get to know the true me, behind the smiles and being nice... and that's only 2 people out of the many. It's an image that's stuck with me to the point where I can't get it to go away, or I risk losing everything I worked for.

Knowing everyone one is nice, for a while... but it gives an empty feeling inside, no one has really stuck to me. Like a true friend, who knows everything about you... from your favourite colour down to your show size. I've gotten something close to that special person but in the end they all left.

Either to someone else or just moved on from me, like I was nothing.

One friend lets name her Alice. I've known her since the start of this year (2024) ever since we were in the same class, we got close because we shared a mutual friend. She's been the closest friend I've ever had so far this year, she was like me just prettier! Nice, Polite, sweet, friendly and followed the rules like me.

Together we were amazing, stuck like glue. She was perfect for me... but not all good things last forever, halfway through the year she changed when a girl, lets name her Fiona, changed it all. Fiona is the exact opposite of me and Alice, half of everyone in our school year disliked her, she gossiped, talked back to the teacher, was loud and didn't care if she got in trouble.

She joined our group of a few people and began to Influence Alice, and not in a good way at all. Alice began to change and for the worse she began to become like a mini-Fiona... and began to drift away from me and got attached to her even though Fiona treats her like shit. And when I mean 'treats her like shit' I mean talking about her behind her back, not paying attention to her if they hand out one on one, use her for her things and so on.

It was horrible... it felt like once more everything I knew was slipping through my fingers, laughing at me.

Friends, are those special people who enter your life... some stay and others are there for a certain chapter, some cases it was never for forever and we accept it. But after this whole experience... I'll offer this, in a case like this... always speak up about it. Yes it hurts in the short term, but long term? it'll be the best thing you've ever done

I'm just too scared to admit, I'm afraid of what'll happen if I tell Alice how she's changed for the worse... but I plan to tell her, even if it means that our friendship breaks. It'll make me feel better knowing that I displayed my concerns to her and if she wants to listen? amazing, and it not? she'll learn the hard way of how she's blind...

Know what's right for you and don't do what I did... find those certain people who make you smile and make your heart light at the end of the day, if the relationship turns sour? Leave, don't stick around... trust me, it'll get worse than it was already. 

No one stays forever, and that's alright...