Whats a song that literally describes you rn?

Currently the song 'White Flag' by Slutever is reall, really, painfully, relateable. Like especially the lines:
"I want a boyfriend with a cool name
To kiss or break up with, it's all the same
I just gotta get away 'til my head's clear
I can't create, I'm not inspired/I fucking hate it here"

My love hate relationship with the holidays is just great isn't it *dies*