I feel....trapped 嬉しい！悲しい！怒っている！

I don't know why but i hardly ever go outside and my mom won't let me be outside by myself anyway so does it matter anyway? I mean...I've always had my freedom taken away like this my whole life....but I am 13 so I guess mommy's just trying to protect her little girl...but...I feel so alone and trapped...like I'm just isolated {とても寒い...とても寒い} but...on the bright side my stuff is coming in tmr and I painted sum cute stuff on two of mah boring shirts like i painted M❤️❤️T on one of them then Shirogoma on the other one :3