THERIAN VENT :3

im so bored of going to sleep and waking up acting like my problems are gonna poof away. im not a good person and as mush as i say im working on it, i just dont really care about what others think or how i make others feel. the only time i feel fully free of every dumb bullshit problem is in dreams when im running with a pride or casing prey in the forest. i never have any free time or the actual space to shift anymore. id made me feel whole. shifting was the one time that for a few hours, i could be me and alone and free. i feel so ashamed of being a therian. everyone looked at me like some freak or a chronically online child who won't grow up acting like im talking bullshit and basically spitting on me when i explain therianthropy.  i have no real friends that even know what atherian is. i wish i could talk to more therians and know more things and not feel like such a monster all the time. life is so bullshit!! even my boyfriend thinks im an actual freak for being a therian he laughs in my face when i ever bring it up.                  maybe ill just explode