Love

I hate loving someone who is dead, i hate. I wish we could have meet. I know you would like me, we are so alike, we think the same, why did u have to die? I feel a strong connection, if u were reborn as me it would be a punishment. My friends think im a weirdo for that, what would they understand about love? What would i? I dont know what love is really. Its so weird. I hate loving someone like you. Why you had to die? It makes me sad. Ill kiss your grave and get buried at your side. I wish we could been friends atleast. In the back of my mind. I wish i died with you. I wish i had. I wish you were my dad. You could have been. Sometimes i wish it. Thats unusual. Its not a romantic love. Youre god to me, why did you do that? Would you love me too?

K1ll me too. Im begging you. I cant handle that shit anymore. Im a creep, might delete later.