How I met my most beautiful nightmare.

Putting this as "romance" feels stupid, but I still have hopes 💪💥💥 (btw, this is just me telling ALL my wuhluhwuh story that isn't wuhluhwuh bc she doesn't fw me, sooo just stay if u like gossip and want to give me advice or a smack on the top of my head for being so blind)

So, this is about a girl I met at my school last year...Let's call her Kamille.

Kamille isn't in my class, but we've been in the same club since last year, yet, she probably didn't even know I existed. She's...she's not popular, she's not a pink girlie nor an extroverted person, but since the very first day I saw her, I felt something, y'know, at first, I only thought she was sooo cool, she has short black hair, black eyes that stare at you with a pissed expression and...well, she just gives this "fuck off, I'll leave you on therapy" vibes...and I was falling harddd for it.

We never spoke, the few times we met, I was too coward to say anything, and that lasted a year...

So, when this new school started, I noticed she had this pins in her bag of some bands. I knew those bands. Long story short, I kind of liked one of those bands, sooo, after I knew she was a big fan, I started listening to them ALL.THE.TIME. specially when she was around, and I tried to put my phone, y'know, visible???  It was a stupid, very, VERY, stupid plan, but I thought that one day, she may see me hearing that band and go "oh wow, she listens to my favorite band! She's so cool! Imma speak to her!!" Because I'm such a coward and would take the first step.

Honestly I never thought it would work...until one fking day...the day that truly ruined my life, it wasn't even a long time ago, it was October 7, I was just like, in the hallways about to enter the so called club I talked abt earlier, when I heard this FUCKING voice I knew so damn well. Yes. It was Ka-fucking-mille 😭😭 I died. Mmm, so basically, MY STUPID PLAN WORKED SOMEHOW???? She said something like "hey ummm...last class I saw u listening to this band...do u know them?" And I was panicking, sooo I said yes and she was like "omg I'm such a big fann what's ur favorite song?" And I said one and blah blah blah I asked her to recommend me one song of them and she didddd and...then we didn't spoke again 🧍🧍.

Time travel to two weeks after I think, she asked me if I listened to the song she recommended me and I said "Yeah, it was so cool, the guitar solo is sick" or sum like that (as if I hadn't listened to that fucking song day and night nonstop) and she said "yeahhh the scream al the end is so cool...!" And then after that we didn't spoke again 🧍.

Time travel again, I don't remember when, by basically we ended up in a group chat for a club's project and nothing happened in it. BUT.BUT. KFKSKDKSIDK ughhh.

One day.

December 5.

I

Was about to practice guitar

And 

Randomly 

I took my phone

And saw

That

"Hiiii"

With her pfp besides it.

It was her

It was fucking her.

Mmmmm, if I talked about all the things I felt, I would never stop, let's just say I was almost having a seizure. Just because she send me a hi.

Ughh, we've been talking...we hanged out in school once (btw, in that week, we had a Christmas project we could deliver to someone at school, she said that if she had met me sooner, she would've wrote that letter for me)...she wrote me a letter....SHE WROTE ME A MOYHERFUCKING LETTER 😭😭 and by his time I was all head over heels for her, I was suuuuper delulu convinced she wanted me back (there was simply no way, she's gorgeous and I look like a dough made by a nobody)

Mmmm I think this letter is very important, so imma try to sum it up:

She said something like: "hey, ik it's weird I'm making this letter to you, but idk if u remember we talked about this that day we hung out, I said that if I had met u sooner, I would've wrote that letter to you, so now I have to write this one, I want it to be for uuu. Thank u for letting me meet the pretty person u are. I know our friendship isn't from a long time ago, but you truly are someone important in my life, u are simply different from the others."

IM NOT EVEN EXAGGERATING, THATS WHAT SHE WROTE AND UGHHH I was passing out.

We kept talking and that...but that's when I discovered this tiny little detail abt her...

She ghosts me.

First, it was one time, it wasn't even that long, it was like 1 day and half or sum, and she apologized and said she had been soo busy and that she felt she owed me something.

It was okay, I thought it was normal, like, we are all busy??

But then

She ghosted me for like 6 days.

And I knew, I knew she wasn't that busy, she doesn't know, but I figured out her ig account and she uploaded a photo, but there was something ummm like weird in this, in that story she posted, it was like, night and in an unknown place in the city and with a Deftones song but...there was this thing written on the story...

"Running away from home has never been so much fun"

I pissed myself tbh, like, it's not drugs or something, or maybe I'm just an overprotected kid and I'm thinking too much about this but idk it honestly felt weird to find out she did this typa things...

And when she finally answered, she said that she had a horrible emotional breakdown and got her phone taken away or sum.

Sooo she keeps answering after like 2838282823 hours and I'm currently being ghosted again...since like 5 days ago...like, we're talking and on some point she doesn't even open the message and starts ghosting me...

Idk, if u read all that, what do u think?

(Srry for the probably bad english)